I have a confession...

Lean in closer. No, a little closer... All my best friends, ever since I could remember, I have always fallen a little bit in love with. Just a little. And it wasn't anything super major. It's like I crush on them, fall in love before I can help myself, and then it all settles back down, and they're one of my best friends. When it's actually happening, it doesn't feel like just a little crush. It feels like full-blown infatuation. But I've never told any of them. It seems like it'd cause unnecessary akwardness. Especially since it always goes away. I don't have a clue why this happens, but it has with all my real good, closest friends. Maybe it's just a sign of my immaturity, or maybe the qualities I look for in a best friend are also the ones I seek in a mate.
This is just something I've been thinking on a lot lately. Some people are just friends. But the best friends, that exclusive group, I've fallen for all of them at one time or another. It didn't matter if I was in a relationship or not, I'd still fall. And it'd still fade away.
It's hard to explain fully. It's not that I think I'd do anything, maybe it was just more of a chemistry, or that we just click in a way that feels so right. They're just people that I get, and that get me, so completely, and they're always someone I respect for something, I just can't help it. I fall for my best friends. There's some little something that they do, that no one else does, and I fall in love. There's never really anything that makes me fall out of love. And I'm not sure if it fades away; it just turns into something else. I don't stop loving them, it just grows and morphs and turns into a different love.
Oy, I don't know.