What's My Body Trying to Pull?

Song mood: Ellie Goulding-I'll Hold My Breath
(If you like it you should check out her whole Bright Lights CD):
I consider myself a pretty positive, happy, up-beat person. I can find the good in pretty much any situation. So when I find myself angry for no reason it tends to throw me. I usually retreat (or go into "Hermit Mode") until I can figure out what's going on and try to fix it.

I don't like angry or violent people. They scare me a bit and I choose not to be around them. I don't tolerate yelling well either. The couple-friends that I drink wine with around the bonfire from time to time? I choose to never drink enough that I cannot safely drive home because the male half tends to get a little angry when he's had too much. He starts yelling about frivolous things and wants to pick fights with the neighbors. That's when I go home.

I found myself inexplicably angry for the last two days, wanting to tear into everyone for any reason. That's not me. I don't know what triggered it, but it was followed by an inability to stop sleeping yesterday (I'm normally quite happily a 3-5 hour sleeper when not sick). Followed by an inability to sleep last night. I've been up for 22 hours and show no signs of tiring. I'm freezing and have been for the past couple of days, but I'm happy and awake. *shrug* I can deal with that.

I'm now exactly two weeks into my new med, but it's a med I've been on for extended periods before. It's basically a supplement and shouldn't have any side effects. But when I'm on pills of any kind, November 2010's little ER visit is never far from my mind and I am trying to keep a cautious eye on all my symptoms and moods. I'm pretty happy, optimistic even, and not as stressed as I was in the week leading up to the Shingles outbreak, yet here we are... I don't really know what's going on or what to expect, but I'm putting this out there so you're aware of what's going on in my world.

I start weekly acupuncture tomorrow, *fingers crossed* that it helps. We are in NorCal's rainy season, so my Fibro's trying to be a jerk, but the pills seem to help. I'm supposed to take 6 a day (2 at a time, three times a day unless I flare, at which time I'm to take 1 less pill. Confusing, right?) I'm also supposed to cut carbs, which frankly sucks. But I'm attempting to keep an open mind and am willing to try anything once or twice. Well, except Celexa (Citalopram). Fuck Celexa.

I love you dearly and wouldn't be where I am today without you. Yes, you. Thank you. I need you in my world, so no disappearing k? Bear with me.

Wow, is it seriously Thursday already?!

Because I have the attention span of a mosquito and music makes my world go 'round, I would first like to call your attention to the newest song from The Ting Tings, "Soul Killing." Open this up in a new window/tab, page down once and click the little play button to the right of the album cover picture of skeletons.

Listen.

Can you think of anything other than a bed squeaking in a naughty way? I have listened to this song 5 times and still have no idea what it's about.

I actually rather like the Ting Tings. I saw them open for someone (maybe Pink?) a couple of years ago and they're awesome sauce. I like finding new music, books, artists, websites, photography, television shows or movies, and when I stumble across something that's not absolutely terrible, I like to share it. Because sharing is caring. In fact, if you find something new that you like, I encourage you to share it too. Drop me an email: CaliforniaKay at Gmail.com Don't be scared, I don't bite. Not unless you ask very nicely and frankly, I just don't know you well enough for that.

Don't worry, the Blind Gayting is coming. I just wanted to drop this little nugget of ear candy on you first.