More ranting about the knees

Do yourself a favor and don't even read this. It's just going to be me whining about my knees again.


My knees were doing ok this morning. Hella stiff, and still hurting, but not as much as they had been. Then I decided it was probably time to do the exercises the quack told me to do. I'm supposed to sit in a chair, and lift each leg for 30 seconds, 10 reps, 3 times a day. I got to 5 reps on my right leg, and it hurt hella bad. I'm feeling nothing from the muscle above the knee that this is supposed to work (my quads), but my knee cap feels like it's being pushed up (or if we're going by the picture, to the left). That doesn't seem to me like it's what we're going for here.

I still have an appointment for Wednesday to get a referral to a specialist. My GP told me last Thursday that my knee caps are both out of alignment/unstable, and that if we just strengthen my quads, that should tighten up the tendons, and get me all squared away. Thus the exercises. The eventual goal is to get me back onto a bike and that I'll hopefully develop the nasty biker's knee. You know what I'm talking about... When their quads are so developed, it looks like they have a whole nother knee on top of their knee... Yeah, that.

But what I don't understand is: if that's what's going to make me better, why the hell did this happen in the first place? When my knees started acting up, I'd been hitting the pool and the gym/biking at least 5 days a week for 3 months. I could bike all day with no problem (I'm serious. Friday night you could usually find me at the gym, biking for an hour and a half, just cuz). I'd just started trying to throw in some running and my knees started bugging me. I immediately dropped the running. But when I tried throwing it back in again, same problem. Soon even going for walks aggravated my knees. The first doc I went to told me to wait a month and it'd disappear on its own. Well guy, this shit has fucked me over pretty royally since August, how bout another diagnosis? All these fools (3 different doctors) have told me to wait a month, don't do anything but rest the knees, and they should get better...

Mother-fuckers, listen to me: I can barely walk anymore. I now just sit at work with a fucking heating pad on my elevated knees, only moving to use the bathroom. And the only reason I go to work is because I can't handle staying at home.

God, I need help. I need someone to fix my bullshit.